Lately I have felt a real struggle. Like I am struggling just to survive. No one should feel this way. All my money and then some goes to bills. I don’t have a spare dime to put into a savings account, or towards travel, or any kind of entertainment. Because of this I stay home and do not have a social life.
Well, a few days ago I decided to completely dedicate myself to my wedding photography business that I have been trying to start for years now. I became really motivated and excited, and then within a week, burnt out. Today I purchased a $500 flash for my camera, which honestly is one of the least expensive things I “need” for my business. It sent me into a hopeless downward spiral.
Shortly after that I saw an article on some guy named Kyle Thompson that inspired me. The photographs he was taking of himself were very much like the ones I used envision myself, yet never followed through with. When I was taking pictures of myself years ago, I truly enjoyed myself and it made me a better photographer overall cause taking pictures of yourself is hard. On top of that, this guy used a super cheap lens (that I happen to own) to take all these amazing pictures.
I then decided to listen to one of Deepak Chopra’s recent mediations (Day 3 of the current 21-Day Meditation Experience), and it talked about how following your true calling is easy once you figure it out. A rose does not struggle to bloom, it is its destiny. It made me think about my possible career in wedding photography and realize how much of a struggle it is currently and most likely will continue to be. It isn’t what I had originally considered doing, it was just a great business move… and photography after all. But what if I follow my heart’s true desire and write and take artistic, beautiful pictures? Will more come of that cause it is NOT a struggle to me? I think I am willing to find out, all while pursuing my wedding photography career just the same.
A tough Wyoming cowboy who just happens to like blouses
Sissy Goodwin isn’t gay; he’s been married for 45 years and has two adult children. As a young man, he was a rodeo cowboy who rode bulls bareback, a free spirit who never shied away from a fistfight. The former aircraft mechanic loves to drink beer, play golf, throw steaks on the grill.
What sets him apart, he says, is what he calls gender independence: He just likes to do most things in a dress.
A resilient guy living it out in Wyoming, a state he refers to as “the Mississippi of the West” for its disposition toward him, Goodwin has been beaten, arrested and glared at for years - but he continues his defiant dressing habits to this day.
Read more from reporter John M. Glionna in a Column One feature.
Photos: Mel Melcon / Los Angeles Times
"We don’t go natural…we return."-Gloria Ann (via cosmic-rebirth)
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